Beginnings

A dream revisited

A dream revisited

During a workshop at Vortext led by Rahna Reiko Rizzuto, we used the tarot to explore questions in our individual writing projects. The cards are simply a tool to remind us of what we already know, she said.

This has been my own approach to working with the tarot. In the most literal sense, it has helped me recall memories I’d suppressed for years as I’ve continued my dive into not only what I hid but why I hid it.

On acknowledging resistance

On acknowledging resistance

During some downtime at Vortext, the writing salon I attended earlier this month, I jotted into a notepad, trying to put a tail on the thoughts I’d started to gather on the ferry ride to the retreat grounds that morning. To pin down the questions I wanted my book to ask and to illustrate why they mattered by sketching out its opening scene.

I had resisted writing those words. As I let the questions take shape, however, I realized that my resistance needed its own place on the page. That the struggle to frame the questions was an essential part of the story too.

On listening to our creative blocks

On listening to our creative blocks

I have been thinking about a writing project that I’m afraid to start.

To anyone else, the project looks innocuous: a few CDs and a folder of handwritten notes tucked inside a paper box I picked up at IKEA. The box is white with a metal bracket on one side for a label, but I’ve left that blank. I know what’s in there. I don’t need any reminders.

I’ve quite literally shelved this, wedged the collection of artifacts into the bookcase where I keep my journals, until I can figure out what’s holding me back. Because the story in that box needs to come out. But every time I think about it, I find a distraction, an excuse not to open the lid. E-mails that need replies; bills that need sorting; you name it, I’ll clean it. I’d rather do anything than clean — except face what’s in that box.